random

hey riz, i made this lame playlist for you, i want to add more, but i got disturbed by had a versatile
psychotremoric optional torture that is popularly named as DIE-t, well anyhow, here's what i owe you, i think you are looking for songs that tells more about your life, well i think you can find some parts of it here, this ain't over, i'll make another one for you! cheers for these kind of songs!


"Hey thanks for telling me how to be random!, im a psycho now, Neat-o!"

literary shit

I want to be a director, i have so many stories that i am now too lazy to write, instead i remember them, most of them are indie, some were epic and chick flix, i have thought of some dramatic stories that most people haven't heard yet, like the story i made about two old people fell in love again after spending 50 years separated and having the most amazing and funny stories, with a little twist of close encounters, and having the most different kind of ending that i will not share!.

i am now working on two projects, the first one is all about friendship, the story goes with a boy living in average, with another boy living in his shittiest time of life, the boy wants to discover a friend to keep, the other wants to discover life before it brings him to some place that he doesn't know. The other is all about a great semi doc nurse who's in a home for the aged, he is a legend, and i entitled this as "staring at blurred faces" (because most of old people have blurry visions)

i really want to write it, but i have to share this idea to someone, i need it to be played or at least written, sigh...!! i wonder if my dream gf zooey deschanel is okay.. hahahaha am i a ambitious bastard?! hahaha if so ..!.. hihihi

random reminiscing.

[try listening to collide of howie day and if i am - 9 days for you to know what's my mood]


it's been years since i have a cellphone beeping like busy food hot line, i got loads of text mates and friends, some were potential girl friends and others are good but a little off, i have been experiencing a lot of attention deficit lately, even those who i expect to listen to me doesn't even give a shit, i have grown lonely and for some reason i have develop a list of lines i have that gives me a thousand things to smile, when you ponder on the same thought of course.

1.) being the one who knows better should be the one moving faster, for the one who understands is the wise and the other man is the fool.

2.) committing mistakes becomes more of a guilt only if you knew that it was wrong.

3.) the moment you made a thought to do something best for your life is the time you made a mission to live your life to the fullest, regardless of what outcome it may be, good or bad whatsoever.

4.) saying sorry is true and effective, saying it too much makes it fake.

5.) not all stuff that you are capable to do is right.

6.) simplicity is perfection, it gives you the taste of good and bad which makes every soul in this world memorable.

7.) women suffers more than men, god made men to be more ignorant than women, what makes their relationship special is, men does something out from his ignorance for women to have comfort to anything whatsoever.

8.) don't deny love, love excuses no one.

9.) if you got dumped, get over it, you'll never know when is the next time you'll have it, so go prepare yourself.

10.) if you are hurt, try to be honest. go to the best person who knows you best "yourself", and don't lie, it doesn't keep you from pain, it keeps you with the pain.

- i don't know me anymore, sheep!, im so effin' tired of my fun life, i wanna ask someone out. like a date!

manic music download

FEATHERS - coheed and cambria

change part 1

i am planning to change my entire life, i wanna be a good player, and a party boy, the kind that many will actually like, i wanna be good at something for myself, i am dying inside because of reserved-ness, i wanna be cool and random, i wanna change.

my plans are simple these are:

lose the damn fat belt.
be dangerous and cool.
be an alpha (that doesn't provoke, but attract.)
be confident and life of a party.
and successful at school.

these are attainable if i only train hard, and right now i'm working out to lose weight, im skipping dinner, and lifting weights with lots of cardio work-out i want a new routine, i wanna be a dancer too, sheeze to many things to change, please i'll post things if there are results, but you guys have to promise me to POSITIVELY SUPPORT ME!, help a man here. thanks!

love drunked part 1

sheez!.. first secret to tell, technically type... geez.. anyhow, this is me writing about my life, this is putting emphasis on my love life that bothers me, i liked a girl at school another unique one, who goes by the name (are you freaking kidding me?!), she was pretty, slim and cool, i like her way of handling herself, she was everything a girl could be, a very modest one, funny but not humorous type, and so unique, so i hit her and it was effective, she didn't play, or is it just me thinking that way.

my days of thinking about her was great, i had a couple of fun as i think of it, and i got my confidence back, i never thought that this kind of feeling will reach my wasted <3 again, you know the feeling of having a nice new love song that massages your face gently, whispering your mind to bring joy at everything you do, making you feel to do something to feel it more, the kind of feeling that even the world doesn't matter anymore, yeah i was love drunk and the more you build it the more pain it will cause you if that individual that you like turned you down, but like what i have jst said, none of it matters now, i was fond thinking only of her me, and food, sheez!.

unfortunately the bitch turned me down, it turns out that she was already taken, i can't compete with that, heck! she was perfect but if she likes someone else i can't compete with that individual, i hate this feeling, ghed, every good feeling i had became stupidity in front of me, every detail about that girl made me look like a fool, being ambitious and everything, and i can't deal with it sheesh, nut i got pass through that now, hell i want to relive the kind of bond we made because i feel childish whenever we avoid each other, but as everybody say, "maybe it's for the best", i think maybe it is, damn! they are right again, fu^k the. all i can do now is stare at her elusive face, the face that made a fool out of me, sheez, she will regret this... fukc i'll show them. 2 words.... THE GAME

FIND ME RIZA! haha

my friend wants to look for this site, and she curses me for hiding it.
well if she finally found this site i'll be glad, but there is nothing in here, i want to write a secret here but my time is so hectic, it's pretty long to put it in here but don't worry i'll try to type it here for the mean time, i am working out now, can someone please, if you ever find this blog write a comment about an effective diet. haha hey riza! the answers on my clues that i have you are:

1. it's the ipod, the name of my ipod (she named hers so i gave mine too) is antipara.
2. blogspot find me there, put the first words backwards, it's hard to miss for blogspot is a prestigious site.

i expect you to find me tonight, well cheers if you have found me!

what makes someone to be a somebody?

i am annoyed for some reason that i can't really explain, this is about some people that i can't seem to find a way to put my hands on, these wack-Os has always find a way to slip away from my serious grip.
i feel so naive just by remembering these individuals, the hatred, the frustrations and all this shit to put burden to my heavy weight life, i know people has problems too, but hey!, i have to blow up some steam too, it irritates me just by observing them consume my patients, respect and concern, watching them as they make me look like shit and doesn't give a damn putting me back together, i want to find the kind of help that i really needed.
i know shit about company, i know how to party and how to be a great friend, but it seems nobody really cares about me, heck i think they don't even know my name ever existed, but that's for them to decide, time will come that i will be on my life's throne and laying my sight before them all, in their face of disbelief and flabbergast, i will be smiling and dying to ask them this "have you ever noticed me like that before?" mark my words, i will change, i will be a better man, better friend, better party boy, and a better son.

so... let's answer the thing that i have ask, what really makes someone be a somebody?? is it because of permanence turned into change? does change makes everyone love you? this is f++k up! sheesh... good night

" live with people and you'll end up in inevitable chaos in the quest for their own sake, live alone and you'll end up living your life to the fullest."

tired of shit.

I took this shot from a hospital and this picture kind of reminds me of the video of "ciudad" the one called "Friday afternoon", a very "siesta-mic" song which makes you calm and want to eat lunch or eat as if it's lunch and sleep like most of us do in the afternoon.

Anyway, life is full of shit and I'm sick and tired of people asking me to do shit for them, i want to stand up for my own, i want to fail to discover better things, and try to be stupid just to know why it is called stupid, i need a life. I need to live some part of it for myself because it needs me, i need myself. But now i grew tired of piling their shit, as bob T. at "school of scoundrel" said, "men do not beg he takes it", maybe i should do this for a change i have failed half of my life so far, and maybe this is the time i was waiting for so long and i don't think i should let people should take it from me.

Now i realize, i was born to be unique, i may not be cool but i can still be cool, like tom cruise said from a book made by neil strauss "The Game", "don't stop thinking that way, I'm telling you because i know it's cool!", something like that..

yeah i read the book, made me stand up as a man, i read that book to be successful for my life in wise man's way, i look up to those guys, they are awesome and i want to know more about PUA. someday maybe i will.

uhm-pee-saw

wow, cool i have a blog now, and i can spoil my mind on telling my issues secrets and craziness, there so many things for me to type, and i don't even know where to start, i mean i wanna change my layout but i have no idea how to do that, i feel like i bought a house with really thinking at first, well, i made this and guess i have to make this one good, should i release this to the public? i feel small, but atleast no one can find my shit here, and if there are some strangers here, feel free to read, i only post some thoughts about innovative things, which includes PU, life, and something cool at school and this country, mind you my life is cool with it's bumps, i just wanna occupy my part from the world hihihi, enough shit let's blog, add me screw ups!