the tragic of my episode with you

first time i saw you i said she is cute, with the smile that can tremble me down.
with the eyes that see my insides that burst like the ones in the movies that makes me happy.
you got all the qualities that i ever wanted to anyone in this world.
you made me forgot about my self and go on have fun with you.
but mistakes are scattered like air and that makes this fucked up.
i only made one mistake that leads everything so super bitter.
and that was loving you.
sure i do love everytime we are together.
i never asked of someone like you in my life but i ended up treasuring you and you did the same.
we didn't really love each other because we made a pact to not to.
but everything you did was like luring me to have you.
it was like you wanted me to...
you already ruined me, but i pressed on with it..
why did you have to do it again??...
i want to forget you but you fill my world about you.
and now everytime i wake, my day reminds me of you.
i can't give you love like what all of those people can give.
all i'm capable of doind is make you feel good again or happy
i am the caretaker of your vulnerable heart.
but you kept on giving it to someone else....
i like you, you like me and you need me.
i like you needing me to like you to need you
now i need you.. and now you don't need me...
i guess this means goodbye.

sorry for this pathetic things that i posted people.. nobody wants to hear it kasi.. goonmorning i have to sleep now.

poem shit

*tama na*

sa pinto ng kotse nakatingin habang dinadaanan ng mga ilaw sa labas,
sa isip naman nakatanga habang bumibilis ang oras,
sa gitna ng madilim na kalye
sa loob ng tumatakbong kotse,
punyeta saan ba ako tatanga?
para lang makalimutan ka.

mahirap pumikit dahil mukha mo nakikita ko,
mahirap tumawag dahil naaawa na ako sa sarili ko,
bakit ba tuwing may tutunog sa telepono,
ipinapanalangin ko na boses mo maririnig na tono.
di ko na gusto ang trip ng puso ko,
puro paawa na di ko naman talaga gusto.

pagbaba sa kotse,
sabay tingin sa bintana ng bahay,
wala ng oras para umatubili,
kumabig sa dibdib naglalantang gulay,
lumabas ka sa pintong nasa harap ko.
sa loobloob ko ang sabi ko "putang ina ko"
pero nandyan ka na..
masaya at tamang ganda..
simple at nakakatuwa.
nakakainis na nakakatawa.
matsatsaga ba kita?
maayos na ulit ang lahat...
sa pinagiisip ng hirap,
at sa dinami-daming magandang alaala.
ang pagiisip ng mga ganito? ewan ko.
mas importante ka tama na.