losing you :( (among them... you are the most remembered and loved...)

everything turned out fine, since they released the result of NLE DECEMBER 2011. we've passed! won't you believe that about 1/3 of 66,760 students who came to take that board examination passed, and i am one of them. I am super duper happy because i have been doubting my answers back then... and i was so anxious in those days... BUT with the aid of that individual... every mistake, every wrong turn, everything that i did was bearable, and i owe it all to that person.

i really wanted to tell her that if ever i'm gonna have a girl, i wish it would be just like her. smiles a lot, optimistic, easy-going, adorable, cutest of the cute! and most importantly makes me feel like what i want to feel... most of the time, like a kid, and a guy like when making life changing moments.

I think i really love that woman, i miss her hugs, her sms kisses (yeah i'm one of those people who enjoys those things) and of course and those things we do to make each other loved... though i think that i'm the only one who feels it... because hey.. what if she only does, or says that because she thinks i'm funny when i react on those things, or maybe yet i'm not crossing the friend zone. but either way, i still admit that i have feelings for her. :) even though i've no idea if she likes me that much too. :(

ughhh.. i'm about to leave her now... not because of this. (HECK NO I STILL WANT TO FEEL LOVED BY HER) but for the fact that we have to make names for ourselves now. :( sure I'm gonna super miss her :( i think i'll gonna go miss her so bad that i might drink a lot of booze and text her about my feelings... hahahaha...

but if she ever going to discover and read this... i just wanna say what i should've told her a few days ago...

hey..

i love you

i don't really wanna ruin everything we have right now

i just like to say that i love you :)

because i really do love you :)

no need to say something back :)

i'm not assuming that you love me back.

i'm just saying that i care and i will remember you as a mistake if i don't tell you these things :)

remember...

listen carefully..

i

love

you

(smiles)